Sunday, April 17, 2022

Since spending so much time alone in my childhood as an only child, I’ve been in a constant state of seeking attention and companionship. I’ve never been comfortable just sitting in my own company, with my own thoughts. I’ve never been good at being alone. I never took the time to get to know and understand who I am, myself, without the influence of others.

I don’t get the opportunity to do that much now because I have 4 kids to care for, but when I do over this last few weeks, I’m becoming more and more at peace with it.

I have a lot of healing to do, and I’m content not seeking attention or validation from others, for the first time in my life. It’s nice to just…be… and not have anyone to please or answer to. I don’t know why I couldn’t come to this place sooner in my life. But I’m sure glad I found it!