Saturday March 27, 2021

I love being a mom so much. I am definitely not perfect, but I’ve always tried to do the best with what I had. Andy is my first and the one I bonded the closest with. He’s my protector. Evan is my best conversationalist, and is more in tune with pop culture. Cory has the jokes and tons of trivia, and helps fix stuff around the house. And Felix is my snuggle bug. Each very individual and unique. We have been through a lot together, but we’ve always had each other. And I wouldn’t trade that for the world. Evan has been with his dad since fall, and that’s hard. He and I have never been apart even remotely that long. I’m hoping to see him in a few weeks. I’ve just been thinking about all my older boys when they were little lately. All my mistakes, but all the happiness too. I miss those times and I feel like I definitely didn’t cherish it as much as I should have. I’m doing my best to cherish what I have now. But I miss what was, as well. Time moves so quickly. But no matter what, becoming a mom is the best thing I ever did.